THIS IS NO FUCKING JOKE GOD FUCKING DAMMNIT!!!

God, you better fucking read this if you are my friend, or you are no fucking friend at all.

i fucking hate my life, it sucks, BIG TIME. (sorry for so much swearing )
sometimes i wish i were dead....

it started out when NO ONE was commenting on my deviations, NO ONE besides ~Thundermoon28 and *izzehK (thanks guys! ) but they shouldn't count becasue i know them in Rl and they see the pics in rl. i didn't know my art was that bad. i mean...god, should i quit dA or something? whats up with you guys? i TRY to stay loyal and comment, but my computer was just fixed today after being broken for about 5 months or so...so just please comment, and i'll change...if that's what the problem is.

second of all, my grandma's 350 lbs english mastiff (dog) called noodle died like last week at age 4 of bone cancer, and NO FUCKING JOKE, he was like me, ~Thundermoon28, and *izzehK's best friends. i know that sounds silly, but you didn't know him. i cried for fucking days, and i literally ripped my hair out when i was lying on the ground sobbing uncontrollably while staring at his picutures. God...i miss him so much.... *tears roll down cheeks*

then, i found out recently like last week after noodle died that MY DOG has cancer, MY DOG that i've had since i was like 1 years old, my first pet. my black lab named pango.....has cancer in his liver and heart; which is slightly enlarged which means he's prone to heart attacks and he has fluid filling inside himself and he keeps peeing out his protein because of the liver problems which means that they have to stick a tube in his fucking stomach and drain the fluid out, which drains out whatever he eats, and now he's so fucking skinny it makes me shudder to look at him. he pukes up EVERYTHING he eats, even his medicine which is supposed to make him stop throwing up... it's probably about time he died...and so now here i am again crying in the closet and crying myself to sleep, and i get on dA, the ONLY place that makes me smile and i have NO messages NO FUCKING messages besides ones from thundermoon and izzehk, then which she tells me that she's moving to seattle, FOREVER!!! that's two fucking states away from CA!!!

i just can't believe it...she's been like my bff ever since kindergarten, and were going into 10th grade next year...and now i cry even more, and i frequently cry in class, which makes my teachers mad.

and now i have an F in math because it's so fucking hard and i have an F in computers becaause i come on here instead of my projects.

and then i found out yesterday that one of our family's bff's horse jewel died of colic and left her 3 week old baby lucy an orphan so i have to stay up practically all night and bottle feed it then wake up at 4:30 am to go to fucking school. i'm sorry you had to read this, WHICH PROBABLY NO ONE DID. since they NEVER commenton ANYTHING i say. whatever.
i guess i'll go cry now.
~warriorsfan